Parenthood.. what an expensive job

Before somebody calls me "daddy", I didn't think having a kid would be such a big deal. I always thought that babies are nice, play with them and put them in the closet until the next time we want to play. Then my daughter arrived in all pink and smiles at you with her cute face, and everything changes..

When I sit back on a warm night, caressed by the soft breeze, sipping a glass of wine and I see her playing in the front yard, I stop for a moment and think, "There's a lot of pain coming."

As she grows up she's going to hurt me, without even wanting to. She already hurts me and doesn't know how much.

Love hurts.

However, without her our lives would be incomplete. The minute I carried her over the threshold 6 years ago, our house finally became a home. Actually, I carried my dragon, who carried my daughter, who looked so beautiful and innocent that I almost dropped them both, as well as dragon's luggage from the hospital which, having no free hands, I had to hold in my teeth.

Now my little girl has her own room, full of her own stuff. Dragon and I have separate closets but I swear I never actually gone inside. i might not make it out. Once, when she asked me to find a particular purse, I had to call my mum in law to come over and help me.

When I opened my daughter's closet, I got a shock, her closet looks just like...my dragon's closet, only the clothes are smaller and neatly arranged in smaller cloth hangers. There's no mistaken whose daughter she is. Like her mother, she also has lots of shoes. Some have never been worn. Suddenly, I feel like someone's staring at me. Her room has dolls all over and there are so many - you hardly notice them. Most of the dolls are pretty cool but there is one collection she calls 'fragile dolls'. Their little, all-too human eyes looks at me as though I am an intruder. They've hemmed me in. I feel a bit faint and wait... I could've swear to God one doll in the middle was not there before. From the corner of my eye, I saw them looking at me. They'd better not be moving and switching places when I'm not looking, or else I'm going to have to check into a hotel room for the weekend. What's that sound.. now there's something scratching at the door. It better not be any of her doll's friends.