The time before dragon got pregnant was great, I thought she was so fine. Our daughter is already 6 years old and now I spent more time with dragon together. Then the news of the baby came. Considering how much fun we were having, i think that was God's way of saying, "Enough already!"
Many people were right about one thing, baby does distrupt your schedules. Dragon and I had perfected our routine: work, movies, travel, computer games, reading, gifts to each other. It wasn't a bad way to live, except when she expected me to wear the chaps to bed.
Many people were right about one thing, baby does distrupt your schedules. Dragon and I had perfected our routine: work, movies, travel, computer games, reading, gifts to each other. It wasn't a bad way to live, except when she expected me to wear the chaps to bed.
Baby's birth broadened our lives by making us focus on another human being. In other words, the baby demanded lots of time and energy. What I really mean to say is that we signed a lifelong contract with no escape clause. At the time I believed that forsaking my own needs in the service of another was transforming. Now I think I was so sleep-deprived that I couldn't have been thinking clearly and signed the lifelong contract under extreme duress.
The whole fatherhood experience has turned me into a different guy. Once, when an inconsolable infant cried nonstop in a plane, I would say to the stewardess "Look, haven't you people heard of cloroform?"
But being a father has brought me smack into the family of man. I am far more less judgemental. Now, if my son cried on the plane and if I get annoying looks from the passengers; my first thoughts are, "Maybe some chewing gum will help your ears.. maybe if I held you people up for a couple of minutes would fix your hearing problem.. maybe you should try to hear from your backside.."
Having a baby made me both fiercely protective and softened me to life. The kid opened me up to hope. Kids are about hope. Kids are about the future. They're about our future. They are about having someone around we can guilt into taking care of us when our minds make appointments our bodies can't keep.
I like the guy I am now better than the guy I used to be.
2 comments:
hey isn't this the kind of photo that can get u into trouble with the authorities?
anyway, i didn't realise i bookmarked your old address. i just thought that you'd given up blogging!
yup, did some housekeeping on several blogs.. tat's why I put a link back to my mainpage as the portal to others..
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